Like many other people, I was planning to claim weirdness to myself...but then almost everyone now call themselves weird. As if weirdness had suddenly become the 'in' thing... With slots for wierdness all seemingly full, i guess i am left to be classified as normal...that wouldnt be too bad now would it?...ah whatever...-__-;...weird...normal...just plain whoever. I am not very good at typing stuff up in these 'about me' pages. I do not enjoy the idea of saying this and that about me. I take too much time thinking about what to say. I fear that what i may type may not really be me at all. Oh how complicated.
# green tea
# books
# manga
# pocky
# sushi
# drawing
# thinking
# downloading
# my laptop :D
# Willyum!
# interesting species of human beings
Wish List
:: fly to the moon :: get a laptop
:: new laptop / make over :: nintendo DS-lite :: external hard drive :: get good results 1st term
:: flowers for algernon - the novel
:: Complete Neil Gaiman collection @_@ :: graduate college with at least a 3.0 CGPA :: rule the world (?)
...but of course I don't mean a literal one. I just need to say that as a release. So sue me.
so what of my selfishness? I've been deprived. Maybe it's better if you take it all. So I won't have anything to feel for.
I'm not sorry. Anymore. For what I feel. If I'm always sorry for it, I won't have anything left. Why do I have to complicate things. I don't really need involvement. >__>; ROAR.
i cried a bit again, for some reason. a really petty reason actually. because i couldn't talk to wil today...well, i did...for awhile...but it was only for 2 minutes or so...because he had his hands full with halo3 and his friends came over. so, i couldn't really tell him much...but i was looking forward to talking to him actually.
i'm starting to feel very stressed now. we got our assigned mentor and reader yesterday...and since sir valencia sent them late, we only had a day left before we had to pass the thesis contracts. So I was panicking yesterday. I was having a hard time contacting my groupmates. It didn't feel very nice.
I got to talk to wil for a minute yesterday, and that made me feel better. same goes for this morning.
i feel restless, and panicky. we got ms.tan-mansukhani as our mentor...and she's pretty strict. she's nice, i like her . but she can get scary, and intimidating despite her smiley face. it's our first day with her and she already mentioned the threat of the dreaded zero-point-zero if we don't get things done right...she won't even let our proposal get to the reader if it doesn't meet her standards. so if we do bad, we'll get zero for both.
*sigh*
i wanna cry silly, even though it's stupid. >.>;;;...rawr. I annoy me. I think, I would have wanted to be outright selfish and go "Hey, I need you. I'm an attention seeking monster so pay attention to me."
but I can't. I'm already rather clingy...and VERY ANNOYINGLY so. I think I don't have any pride left...and if I still have some , I'm steadily losing it...I guess.
...but perhaps I do have pride. Yeah, I guess I still do. Because I don't want you to box me in the same category. I don't want to be the selfish annoying psycho depressive clingy girl creature.
...but I have my tendencies.and since I now find that I actually do have pride, it might push me to the other end. Why can't I be in the middle...the safe ground. Why do my feelings have to be in the extremes.
Why do I have to feel with all of me, or otherwise renounce everything and feel nothing?
I really annoy me.
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In other news... ...oh yeah. I'm going on a retreat this Saturday. ......and I'm having a hard time asking people who matter to me for a palanca...>__>; maybe I just don't want to feel bad if I don't get one, despite summing up the courage to ask for one. ------- I feel sick. Rereading what I typed, I can't even express myself without being trying to appear like I'm still somewhat "cool"...
I'm in constant battle between allowing myself to be weak, and not giving in.
Shoot me. >3<; ------- I need my happy pills. ...oh wait, I still have that black gulaman drink. That'll get me high. darn chemicals in my brain, making me feel bad. I'll douse you with glucose! XD
1) Finally, after years of dial-up, we now have a broadband connection at home :D
2) I now have an portable hard drive! 120gigs, babeh...XDD
...well, I would have gotten a 160 gig one, but it's so expensive...and I'm *cheepcheep* originally I was planning to get that Iomega portable hard drive, the one that costs around $200...O__O...but i was hundreds of pesos short...so i looked around...I saw brands like Lacie, and WD...but they seemed suspicious, even though the WD had a P7000 one at 160 gigs and the hard drive enclosure looks pretty. I finally just settled for a 120gig seagate hard drive with a free enclosure...it was assembled right in front of me...o3o;...it cost me a little more than a hundred dollars...so...with the budget my dad gave me, I still had a few to spare. I'm planning to save it to buy me a new adaptor, since my current one got busted and I had to ask Ate Bing to have it repaired at an electronic shop...so they had to open it up, cut a few wires, and changed this chip...all in all I paid P150, because Ate Bing kindly covered the additional P50 (the chip) for me. My adaptor is currently bandaged with electrical tape. -cry-
I'll go buy me a laptop bag first though...and..I'm looking into having my laptop repainted...My dear laptop looks so battered now, but I still love it.
the installation of the broadband lightened the last half of my saturday...the first part didn't go too well because my "date" with Wil so we could catch up on things...was cut short...6__6;...bouts of emo-ness ensued.
but mooooving on...
oh, today...I called Bekha...O___O...well, it was this morning. After I called Wil for a bit. I didn't get to say much xD...and well, I still had to put on my shoes and brush my teeth. I called back Wil right after...well, after I put on my shoes and brushed my teeth...to tell him about it. For some reason, his phone didn't beep for low battery for what seemed like 10 minutes. The reason why I had to put down the phone the first time I called him today was that the phone started beeping...-__-;...but anyway...
it was nice. ^__^
Oh! Oh yeah, back on the weekend...because of my feelings of emo-ness last saturday, I had a semi-interesting odd conversation with Tina about me wanting an Isabella. That is to say, I want to have a motherly gay man/transsexual elizabethan-ish clothing wearer (who is freakishly tall) best friend. @__@...I also would want to name it Isabella...after Isabella in Paradise Kiss. The thought of it just comforted me...xD;
i think I wanted an Isabella to senselessly cry my heart out to...^^;;;...cry my embarassing woes of...love? O__O...or whatever...those feelings i get when i have my period...when my emotions go BLERGH.
----- hmm...last saturday, I...gah, no...>.>;...well, i stayed up until 3am of sunday. I finished watching "The Girl Who Leapt Through Time" >3<;;;; I've read the reading already though...O__O...but...GAH ...I CAN'T JUST PICK 10 events...>.<;;...I still have to weigh the importance... ...I'm getting OC lol <---wow, I use these now. Lately I find that I've been using LOL...and I never really used it. Never gave into it. Until...lately? XD ----- bwaha. ------ William...>3<...I MISS YOU TOOOOO! and YES, I SHALL HAVE YOU MAKE ME THOSE FOODIES THAT YOU BAKE! ROAR.
--- the end. XD
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OH, WAIT. O___O must remember. to buy a phone card. Must call Wil's Mom...and greet her a belated happy birthday (Sept. 13)!
Urgh. My first day back to school begins with the guard refusing to let me in. >__>; I did the usual put-the-wallet-on-the-whatever-you-call-it so it can scan my ID, but then it turns out, something was wrong with the system and everyone is "Out-of-school" even though it's the first day of classes and I ALREADY PAID my tuition. rawr.
well, I wasn't the only one who had the "problem"...it appears everyone did. Good thing I brought my EAF or else I'd have to line up and get a form...like everyone who did not bring their EAFs or O.R.
...but anywho, moving on...
^__^...after that, I got to talk to William for a minute or so! I only had 3 minutes left in my phonecard...so...I couldn't stay long. If ever, we wouldn't be able to talk much anyway I guess. ^^;
his cousin Abraham is over...and so are the other members of the family I think...X3 everyone was saying HI! an all I could say was, umm, hello to everyone (back)...it was very sweet, hearing them...and of course hearing Wil too, even though uh...he didn't recognize my voice (at first?)...>__>;;;...but that's probably because the line was clear this time! XD because I was using the payphone and not iCall via dial-up...since he sounded sort of amazed that he can hear me. I could hear people talking in the background, though I wasn't so sure who was who. If mattea was there, or moriah, then I must have heard them saying hi again and William sounding cutely semi-annoyed (or embarassed? X3) and saying again that I already said hi and so on . ^^
another cute thing to note was how...haha, when Wil gave me a *smoooch* on the phone a couple of people seemed to have made fun of him...xD...i heard that before I hung up...I was thinking it's either Mattea (or moriah?) or maybe one of his female cousins, if they were around. I heard someone say "you call that a kiss?" or something. It was very amusing. I can imagine Wil having a sort of "leave-me-alone" semi-embarassed face...must have been adorable.
I would have loved to be able to talk to them too, if I had more minutes...but ooooh well~
It makes me happy, hearing them in the background. I feel very...welcome.
I hope I can make Wil feel the same someday.
-------- I feel I'm going to have my period soon. I have been quite cranky the past few days. Maybe even more than cranky. Perhaps, angered VERY easily, especially when provoked by certain ickyness, lol. I've been experiencing abdominal cramps that last for 10 or so seconds, around 1-2 times for two days now. Ugh, It would have been more convenient if it came earlier.
I also feel bloated.
Although, maybe that's just in my head...an excuse for my flabbiness...XDDD -------- I hope this term goes well. really really. -------- I think I'll nap for a bit.
UNBELIEVABLE!XDDD ( <---haha, hana yori hang-over, which i finished today) This day, is full of surprises. discoveries, and revelations. XD I love you my OB-people! X3 you the man, aren tan! XD tina, karla, and isabelle. i love you guys. lol..........xD
and to tina, you are "Busy, Lah"? XD -inside joke-
---------------------- Oh yeah, happy birthday Christelle...XDD...haha, no wonder those other things had to happen on this day...roflmao X3
to you, I dedicate this video:
introduced to us by the wonderful isabelle. XD
----------------------------------- --RANDOM-- and for my "mystery lover person"XDDDDD this one's for you! >333 *lickiss*
---------------------------------- the stuff that happened today cheered me up, for the stuff that happened yesterday.
---------------------------------- i love you, Ate.I'm sorry.I just got too hurt that you thought that way, and even after I tried to nurse my hurt feelings to come back for you. When you said that, It really hurt. So I ended up doing what I did. I didn't like what I did though.
but I'm glad it wasn't as bad as I could possibly do. I love you Ate. oh, you're home now. but you won't be able to read this. I won't tell you. XD
You know, I really care about you a lot. I want to say I hate you, but I can never really really hate you. And because of that...GAH...you really annoy me. xD because I can't hate you. You are important enough that you. well, that you can easily hurt me.
what's more is that you're family. haha, i can never get away from you. i don't know if i'd want to. even if i can. i often get the feelings of wanting to though, especially when you open that machine gun mouth of yours that say lots of hurtful things (which you don't mean all the time)...but yeah...xD;
anyway. you're home. and you're eating right now. I'm glad you got home safe. -------------------- JANNA IS OFF TO BED! XD mwahahaha, to dream of my willyum! <3
cherry fantasies! LOL @ karla, tina, and isabelle <333
twas so much fun! <333 it would have been nice if i were able to take pictures of the grocery's inside, but oh well.
The travellers(TM) XD reunion day was a success...true, there were MINOR casualties (namely our wallets -- I spent almost two weeks worth of my allowance i think @__@ but anyway) it was really fun.
It's too bad that a lot of the stuff i ended up buying were umm...not for me...>__>;;;...BRAWR...but whatever...perhaps i'll double it as christmas AAAAND birthday gifts? or something. No complaints people, I just got what I could.
Next time, when I get money, we'll go back. XD we still HAVE to go eat at one of those stores in little tokyo...or maybe go back to yamazaki's and try the other stuff on the menu. AND WE STILL HAVE TO VISIT THE MANGA STOOOOORE >3<;;;...it's P200 an hour but you can do lots of stuff there. We just looked, didn't touch. I might come back in October...the lady in the cute english maid outfit said they'll request for kaori yuki's Godchild...@___@;;;;;;;...and that by that time, they'd have english manga available too. SO YAY! :D I really hope I have money by then. I'll also make sure to take pictures.
I'm still in school right now, waiting for 5pm to hit, so i can get my coursecard in kaspil2 under sir delupio...and since i don't have my laptop, i can't transfer pictures to post...so i guess i'll just make another entry
OH YEAH...THEY RAN OUT OF PINO ICE CREAM TT________TT -cries- so i ended up buying stuff that half-killed my wallet. I did get to buy croquettes :D it's P12 per piece and I got 4 pieces! but mrawr. I wasn't told i had to cook it on my own. I hope my curry croquettes are still alive in my bag.
it was really fun being with tina and karla. I'm so glad I told karla about it! I haven't seen her even once for two years! and before that...i didn't see her for...2? 3 years? It was really really really fun. Oh, and I bought DVDS! XD @__@...some of them are not for me though
next time William goes here, I'll take him to hatchin! X3 and little tokyo! and makati cinema square! and yamazaki's! and THE MANGA CAFE! and that shop starting with letter C, whose name i forgot! (amma gonna go back there! i wasn't able to buy anything from there anymore because i already used up most of my monies!) AND SKETCHBOOKS...@____@...with all those neat-o art materials...and awesome but expensive books.
...I think when that time comes though, it would be me and him going back...maybe it won't be in the very near future...maybe it's...after i graduate and go back here for a vacation or something.
meh, but whatever. It's gonna be fun! :D I'd like him to meet karla. and perhaps karla's boyfriend too. I haven't met him yet, but i think Wil and Kael would get along. They seem to be pretty similar, at some point.
--- ...I wanna go to timezone and shoot zombies...XD <--random it would be nice if my AC friends can meet teh willyum too. it would be fun. ---
i tried calling before I left the house, and after I got here in dlsu but no one was answering. Hopefully things are fine. I'll just tell of my escapade next time ^^
...and wow, it was around the same time last year. I wonder, what I was doing, exactly a year ago. Was I with you, William? and tina and isabelle too? or was it just me and you? or you+me+tina. I'd like to know. I lost my old phone where i took notes of it. Oh well.
--- karla likes cooking mama too. mraw. i want A DS-LITE. and a wii. AND THOSE NEIL GAIMAN BOOKS IN SKETCHBOOKS. and the sketchbooks in sketchbooks. and the art materials. AND THE I,VAN GOGH book. -faints- --- fun fun XD
-- TINA DEL PRADO, YOU OWE US AUNTIE ANNE's PRETZELS! >3< YOU TRIIIIIIIIIICKED MEEEEEEEEEEEE~ EBIL XD
..and buy lots and lots of croquettes...and some pino ice cream...and some bento boxes...and chopsticks!
I'm excited to go! ^__^ tina and I will
*janna has been interrupted by a phonecall that lasted 23 minutes (6:49-7:12pm)*
OKAY.
TINA AND I WILL MEET UP AT THE MRT STATION AT 9:30AM...O___O We're going to HATCHIN TOMORROW! YAY! XD
fufufufufufu...X3
now i leave you with the sushi bar song lyrics by shonen knife :D
Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar! Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar! Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar! Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar!
I wanna go to a sushi bar. I wanna go with you.
Hamachi, Ika, Ebi, Tako. Maguro, Kaibashira.
How about this Friday night? I can't wait to go.
Anago, Uni, Toro, Natto. Unagi, Akagai.
Ooo, how nice! Healthy menu. It's my favorite Japanese meal. Ooo, colorful art of the food. It's a beautiful Japanese meal.
Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar! Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar!
I wanna go to a sushi bar. I wanna go with you.
Ikura, Battera, Salmon. Tamago, Saladamaki.
Which one shall I order first? I just can't choose.
Kappa, Anakyu, Tekka. Sayori, Kazunoko.
Ooo, Let's eat a healthy menu. It's a famous Japanese meal. Ooo, let's drink hot green tea After a Japanese meal.
Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar! Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar! Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar! Sushi, sushi, sushi bar! Going to a sushi bar!
